I feel like there's a lot of people here on deviantart who don't like me. Not my art, I mean, but they don't like me as a person. I hate that feeling and I know that I've probably done something or said something to make them think bad about me... but I still don't like it.
So I'm just going to let out a big "sorry" to anyone I've ever offended or been rude to. Even if I thought you deserved it, I'm sorry. Even if you were being a huge douchebag, sorry. This journal is aimed at a few people in particular, but I don't want specify who. I guess I'm just too outspoken? too forceful with my opinions. If I don't think something is right, I go at it. If I think you are wrong, I go at you. I know it's not fair to anyone. I try to hold back but sometimes I guess I just don't try hard enough.
I want to try and change that. I've tried before, but it didn't work. So I'm going to try again. I've hidden all the comments on my page for two reasons.
1) I don't want to look at the past comments. Some of them were a bit nasty and some of them were a bit pointless, so ultimately I'm just going to hide those and try to start anew.
2) It'll keep me more organized. If I forget to reply to something I can go back and look later and say "oh, yeah I should get back to that person" because I'm really a forgetful loser sometimes.
Back to the whole apology thing, I mean literally everybody who've I've been even the slightest bit rude to. Could have been yesterday, could have been a month ago, or a year ago before I changed accounts. This is probably a really selfish thing to ask, but if you ever come across this journal and you dislike me for some reason, please forgive me? Or talk to me, and I can try to atone to my actions privately for anyone who wants to talk. I'm not going to send this out to the specific people it was aimed at. I don't want to waste their time and I don't want to bug them. Sometimes forgiveness isn't that easy, I get that. I get that a lot.
If you can't forgive me, for whatever it was that I said or did, I understand. I just wanted to type this out so people know I'm not as horrible and mean as I can make myself out to be sometimes. I promise you I'm not that bad.